Array of Sonshine

And when she could not longer hide him, she took for him an ark of bulrushes, and daubed it with slime and with pitch, and put the child therein; and she laid it in the flags by the river’s brink. Exodus 2:3

Hey Mammas……Do you ever feel like you want to hide your babies from the outside world? Keep them safe at home forever? I know its that time of year where mammas all around the globe are going through that emotional trauma of letting go, as their babies go off to college and perhaps leave home once and for all. Just as Moses’ mother could no longer hide him….our babies grow up, and we have to let them go.

I can’t even imagine how that Bible mamma felt. I mean she never knew if she would ever see that precious bundle again! For all she knew he could have ended up in some alligators belly! But yet she choose to trust. Trust. Trust that her God would somehow save her son from Pharaohs’ degree. (Read the story: Exodus 1:7-2:10) What emotions she must have felt as she lowered that basket into the water. And he WAS a baby, an infant, so vulnerable, unable to help himself. Yet God took care of him, and even gave him back to his own mother to nurse and raise.

This story was such a great comfort to me. To just trust and let go. Does not God love our children more than we do? We’ve raised them to know right from wrong. We’ve done our part. Even when their life choices don’t line up with what we want for them, can we trust God? I’m letting go, as hard as it is, I have let go of my last baby. I choose to trust God, that He will make their life beautiful. Even if it takes them learning the hard way, and going down the longer road, I’m choosing to let them loose into God’s hands and just trust. Trust that He will make their life something better than I could have imagined. God did it for that Bible mamma. That baby was Moses. In Numbers 12:3 it says that God looked upon Moses “above all the men which were upon the face of the earth.” Wow! I’m sure that Moses’ mother could not have begun to imagine that her son would become such a mighty man of God.

These past days, I’ve felt that emotion of loss. I knew these days would come. And yet, as I reread this Bible story, my heart became grateful. Grateful that God let me have each of my babies til they were at least 18. Grateful for the opportunity to be a mother. That God trusted me with three souls of creation to nurture, teach and love. And they’re just going to college….or starting their own adventures….like I did once…not going off to some foriegn land! They’ll still be around! I’ll get to hear their voices and use FaceTime to see their pretty faces. Thank God I don’t live in Bible times! It’s all good. They’re still my babies and will forever more be. We can do this mammas!

Just as Moses’ mother put complete faith and trust in her God for her babies future, may we all exercise that same calm assurance that God will love, take care and make a beautiful life for our precious little ones.

The last of my babies I let go this summer, Audry

My oldest, Andria, who left me in 2015 to follow her man to PA!

My sweet middle daughter Alicia, who left me in 2016 to start adventures of her own.

These three babies….. so thankful for them!!